Tomorrow is the big day...

We have to be at the airport tomorrow (or should I say today?) at 3. And then we're OFF TO CANCUN!!!

I'm uber loopy right now - I just wrote a bunch of fb statuses and on other people's wall that are insane. I'll look back later and do a "What was I thinking moment?" but for now, I think it's completely ok to sing a made up happy birthday song to someone on their wall. Sure, it's not as cool reading it as it is in my head (of course there's a dance too) but oh well.

But I'm officially done with my hermerk (translation - homework) for all my classes, so I can go to Cancun somewhat stressfree.

Oh, I almost forgot! My hubby had to call the resort to check on the shuttle. We had to look up on the internet how to dial internationally (cuz we're just that smart) and as soon as the computer deal picks up, Hubby looks at me with total shock on his face and says, "It's in Spanish!"

Good night all and I will see you in a little over a week! No computers for me in Cancun!

Only 3 days...

until we leave. I've been so super busy I haven't had time for my workouts. I can tell too - I don't have near as much energy as I did before. I'm still losing weight, but I'm not trimming up like I want. I was 149.4 this morning. The lowest I've been since being 6 months pregnant with Hannah. 10 years ago.

I had a root canal yesterday. Fun stuff. But at least it's over with. I'm going to get my rear going after I blog here - hopefully I'll find the energy to finish the ONE paper that is in the way of being completely done for the semester.

So I think I better catch up...

I didn't do a workout today - I had tons of stuff to get done and boy, I did get my rear end moving.

I've been doing my P90X workouts AND the Power90 Mastery series bonus workouts. I really want to get the Power90 just to see what it's like and if it would be a better fit for my parents. Plus, Tony is HILARIOUS in the bonus workouts and it makes it a helluva lot easier to workout when you're smiling and having a good time.

L and I went shopping Saturday. I bought a tankini and 2 bikini tops. I know deep down I shouldn't have gone with the tankini option, but I am just as bound and determined as ever to sport the bikini.

I really can't believe Cancun is just 10 days away. (Well, 11 because we leave Friday and don't get there til Saturday, but still) I'm really looking forward to having a week with my husband. Geez, it's going to be weird. Living my life backwards like I do, I've NEVER spent a whole week alone with Hubby.

I noticed a lady looking at me today at the doctor's office. She leaned over and whispered to her husband/boyfriend deal, "I can only wish to look THAT good when Brook is that big" (Brook was her daughter - she was only a couple months old.) I'm kicking myself now, I could have stepped in and said something encouraging. I only had a couple minutes, but I could have said SOMETHING. As my body gets better, my confidence gets better too. I am really hoping by the time I have another chance like that, I'll be able to step up and help.

Back in..

I think I'm finally back in the exercising groove. It's been a rough couple days, but I am getting going again. Hubby decided to do my workout - so for a while I was waiting until he got home so I could work out with him. This wasn't working out so well - I used to use this time to go for a walk with the dog and just get the eff out of the house.

Another thing that's been holding me back a little has been my ankle. Last week Hubby and I were doing the Cardio X and I knocked my stool into my ankle while doing swing kicks. It's bruised and a little sore, but it's getting better.

I've been keeping track of my weight too - I was down a little to 152.6 this morning. The day before I was 153. I know why too - I haven't been eating as well as I was before. Today was a little better dietwise, but not much. After I ate lunch, MIL brought us a pizza from Dion's. And we're talking the best pizza ever. I ended up breaking down and eating a piece more than I should have.

Today I was going to wait for Hubby to workout, so I did the bonus Power 90 UML and Cardio Intervals from the introductory DVD. I wish Tony was as silly on the P90X as he is on those workouts.

Well, I'm off to do some homework. Fun stuff.

Eh

Yesterday not so good. I busted my arse (and I'm super sore to prove it) doing Shoulders, Chest and Triceps, and I gained a full pound. I have decided to up my cardio for the next couple weeks and really watch what I eat.

I'm off to the park with Coop. I'll be on later.

Slow motion 3 in 1 push ups...

are tough. I hate them. But I did 10 more than I did last week, so I must be getting better at them.

This morning I weighed in at 152.0 again. I'm going to take a page out of Hubby's book and not worry too much about it. Instead, I turned that fretting around and just busted out more reps doing Shoulders, Arms and Triceps. Coop's going down for a nap soon, so maybe I'll do a bonus workout.

I found it very interesting though. I've been somewhat slacking on my schoolwork, so I told myself no more exercising until I finished at least the discussions for HIM. I never ever thought I would be using exercising as a reward!

This "all over body makeover" journey is awesome. I am learning things about myself I never knew. I'm learning that, while I have my weaknesses, I AM able to work through them and I'm a lot tougher than I thought. It's even teaching me something about relationships. I haven't quite put my finger on what that is, but I'm hoping if I lose my self consciousness, maybe I'll be able to have closer friendships.

I started this blog to be completely the outer me, but I'm seeing that the outer me is more inner me than I thought. (I'm not sure that makes sense, but it does in my head.)

Superman Banana!!!

The phrase for the day is Superman Banana! It's in Core synergistics and Cardio X. And I did both of them today.

Sunday was harsh. To make a long story short, I didn't get my workout in Saturday or Sunday like I wanted to, and since Hubby was home, well, I had (insert shocked gasp here) a can and a half of Dr Pepper. Sunday morning I weighed in at 151.0 and Monday morning I weighed in at 152.0.

Hubby tells me all the time to not weigh myself everyday. I find it keeps me accountable. Right now, for instance, there's that ever nagging urge to get an ice cream sandwich, scarf it down and then go to bed. But I know I will be weighing myself in 6 hours (hopefully 8, but you never know with Coop. You hope he sleeps in and then he won't) so I resist and finish drinking my water.

My mother should be recieving her P90X tomorrow. Today she went shopping for the necessities and some of my suggestions. I really hope she does as well as I have done on it.

I wish I would have taken before and after pictures of my legs. My legs rock.

It's been one of those couple days

I know I'm probably wrong, but it really seems like my weight loss and obsession with being healthy is affecting some of my relationships. And not in a good way.

I'm really really frustrated with this, so I think I'm going to work out and think things through before I write something I shouldn't.